wdf did I EVER do to you?

tr.v. an·noyed, an·noy·ing, an·noys

1. To cause slight irritation to (another) by troublesome, often repeated acts.
2. Archaic To harass or disturb by repeated attacks.





I'm in a situation that seems refutable because of this whole "recession" nonsense. I must say, I have never been so bothered by one human being in my life! Is it wrong to think of our parents as martians? Over the years they go from pretty bad to worst and you're left thinking "How could it POSSIBLY get worse than this?". Growing up has always been a "situation" for me; I never really knew what it was like being a kid. Me and my mother clearly never got along, and I surely couldn't say "well..fine, I'll just go live with dad" cause I don't know where in the hell he is. Outside of my mom, my papa knocked up about 5 more women bringing into this world 2 little boys and 1 girl making 7 of us (maybe he's dodging child support payments?).

Now, back to the issue.. I've never gotten along with her due to some issues in the past, which helped with my decision to go off to school. I ended up graduating college,but by not immediately finding a job in my field I had to move back home. What better way to demonstrate that we don't get along than with an example! Example: (I'm currently very ill, it hurts to walk..so if I'm not going to the bathroom or fixing MYSELF something to eat to take with my medicine, then I don't make the extra trips) My mom is a coal-miner, she feels as though someone has to be up every morning fixing her lunch and preparing her clothes (for 1 I am not your husband and you too are not disabled), so when your awakened at 4 am she feels you need to have a kool-aid smile on your face (like honestly, why would I smile when you just woke me up at 4 am to do something when I can BARELY walk). In the midst of trying not to hurl, she hauls off into this whiny banter about how no one wants to help her,or do anything for her without making her feel bad and blah blah. Me, being the person I am, didn't bother to entertain her unnecessary antics and she got mad. She flips out, and started throwing this tantrum, saying things like "that's ok, I'll remember this" calling me a fuck up and yelling left and right; I'm looking like, "Do you HONESTLY think I give two less flying fuck sacks about you being mad AFTER you just got done calling me a fuck up...not to mention waking me up at 4 am to do something to for YOU?" its like...foreal, are you fucking kidding me?? you serious?? This is what I deal with on a daily basis! You talk to your friends for advice and you kind of get tired of hearing the same ole thing.."everything will be alright, don't worry about it"; Sure, I'm really convinced of that, when she's been the same way for 14 years..yea right! If I say anything out of line, that jeopardizes my living arrangements, if I DON'T say anything I will continue to be annoyed. Man, I tell ya, if she was just a regular bitch on the street...OMG...it would be so on......